2007

December 28^TH , 2007

Well my very dear friends, just between the holidays I thought about writing here. Just to let you all know that I am doing fine.

The only thing is, that I am quite behind with sending out the orders; the flu and now all the appointments and family-visits doesn’t give me much time left.

So I hope you all want to be patient, between today and january 3^RD all envelopes will be in the mail, I think you all are already used to delays and I am very happy that you all understand.

May the last few days of 2007 be good for you, please enjoy your New-Years Eve. And I will be totally back for all of you on january 2^ND.

I wish you a good ending of 2007 and a better beginning of 2008, stay well and take care,

René.

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December 22^ND , 2007

Alright my dear friends, everything is ready for the holidays.

My flu is over, just in time.

This may be the last post of me for this year, because I have a lot of appointments with family and friends.

So I will try to write here again the last days of 2007, but more likely it will be at the start of 2008.

The envelopes which arrive here the coming days will probably be waiting a few days; I will try to work a bit every now and than between the holidays. I will send the on its way e-mails, but the orders will be delayed a bit.

Here in Holland we have many free days; we have 2 Christmas days on Tuesday and Wednesday, so many people and offices are free on that Monday and also December 31^ST and January 1^ST. I will try to put some orders in the mail when it is possible, but please know it can take some longer.

Thank you all for being my friends in this past difficult and emotional year, I promise –as every year- to do my very best for you all in 2008.

So once again I wish you all a very Happy end of this year, with all the best for the new year

2008

Please take good care of yourself and everybody next to you, stay well and take care,

René.

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December 18^TH , 2007

Well my dear friends, almost half of the people in Holland had the flu the past weeks, also Aisha had it in a bad way.

I had the hope that my body still had all the antibiotics in it and that I was going to be lucky, but it also was my turn: pain in my head, throat, stomach and a little feaver. I have been in bed a few days but I think the worse part is over.

So the coming days I will start to make the orders again and than answer the e-mails.

I suppose we have to be realistic that those orders are not going to make it before Christmas, but you will all get an e-mail when your envelope is here.

For the rest Aisha and me are alright; looking forward to the holidays with family and friends and looking even more forward to end this emotional year.

I will try to write again this weekend to let you all know how it is going.

Thank you again my very dear friends, until later, stay well and take care,

René.

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December 15^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends, just a short message to let you know I am in bed with the flu. I will ofcourse put the orders in the mail for the people who already received the on its way e-mail.

I will try to be better as soon as possible, please hold your e-mails for a day or 2, 3.

Thank you all and I will be fine again soon, I will ofcourse let you know on this place, stay well and take care,

René.

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December 10^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends,

3 More weeks and we can close this year, you all know I am looking forward to that.

Everything here is going good, busy with the Chrismas orders.

The week between Christmas and New Year I will not be behind the computer every day because I will be visiting friends and family, but please know I will ofcourse reply to e-mails as soon as I can. Also orders will probably go out with a delay of a few days.

I wish you all a very good week and thank you all again, stay well and take care,

René.

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December 3^RD , 2007

Well my very dear friends, the doctors declared me cured!

The results of the CT scan were good, there are still scars on the inside which can give small problems, but that is normal.

So everything looks very good and I am very happy with it. The only thing is, that the doctor told me I will be the old René again next summer, which I think is still a long time to go.

But patience is important, many of you know that also with the very slow mail these days.

The last weeks I worked sometimes for 5 hours a day, which still feels like it is too much. But I am quite on schedule with the orders, packing, e-mails and everything.

Please don’t worry, I will look good after myself and I want to give you all my respect for all the beautiful e-mails and your patience with me when the orders go out a few days later.

Thank you all once more for being there for me, stay well and take care,

René.

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November 27^TH , 2007

And hello again dear friends around the World,

Everything is going quite smoothly, I am very happy that you all have no problems that most of the time I am 2 or 3 days behind with sending out the orders; I am doing my best, but can’t seem to get totaly ‘up to date’.

It seems that this also has a good side: my mental health is not bothering me very much because I am too busy with my body and energy.

So there is no time for any depression, and that is a very positive thing with the holidays to come.

This Thursday I will get the results from the CT Scan, I hope it will be the last visit to the hospital for a long time to come. I suppose there will be no problems; if there was something wrong, they would have called me I think. You will hear it the next week when I write here again.

Just one more month before I can shut this year off, I look forward to that and I hope the year 2008 will be a much better, healthier and happier year.

I also wish that for you all dear friends, until the next week, stay well and take care,

René.

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November 21^ST , 2007

Hello my dear friends,

So I will let the pictures go down this page, so I can start my new life; try not to think about everything too much anymore.

The last days I have been to the doctor and had the CT scan in the hospital. I will hear the result next week thursday when I have to go talk to the doctors again.

I have been told to take it easier as I have been in a “very serious situation”, but for now I think the 4 hours a day I am able to work should be fine.

The only thing is, that half of that time goes by answering the e-mails, that is why I stay behind with the packing and making the envelopes.

So I have to apologize when I am short in answers, but on this place you can read most of my news.

Also I may be a bit hard sometimes, but as I want to make the service a little smaller, I am stopping with people who send me an envelope and than after 3 days start to e-mail every day if the envelope already has arrived. Patience is very important, especially now with the terrible slow mail which I have no control over.

But don’t worry; I will always be there for my understanding friends.

Everything is going quite well with me and Aisha.

I wish my American friends a very Happy Thanksgiving, stay well and take care,

René.

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November 21^ST , 2007

Hello my dear friends,

So I will let the pictures go down this page, so I can start my new life; try not to think about everything too much anymore.

The last days I have been to the doctor and had the CT scan in the hospital. I will hear the result next week thursday when I have to go talk to the doctors again.

I have been told to take it easier as I have been in a “very serious situation”, but for now I think the 4 hours a day I am able to work should be fine.

The only thing is, that half of that time goes by answering the e-mails, that is why I stay behind with the packing and making the envelopes.

So I have to apologize when I am short in answers, but on this place you can read most of my news.

Also I may be a bit hard sometimes, but as I want to make the service a little smaller, I am stopping with people who send me an envelope and than after 3 days start to e-mail every day if the envelope already has arrived. Patience is very important, especially now with the terrible slow mail which I have no control over.

But don’t worry; I will always be there for my understanding friends.

Everything is going quite well with me and Aisha.

I wish my American friends a very Happy Thanksgiving, stay well and take care,

René.

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Intensive Care Unit, september 24^th, One month at home, november 11^th, 2007,

2007: Fighting for my life. Oké, I have to forget beauty contests, but

everything goes well and I can take a shower

without sitting on a chair.

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November 17^TH , 2007

Hello again my dear friends.

I see a week goes past before you know it, well, it was a busy week, but everything goes well. I think normaly I did in 2 days what takes me a week now, but I am happy you all understand it.

A few facts this time; the mail from the UK going to me is quite slow, maybe because of the strikes there have been (or are?). Mail from Ireland has another problem; there is probably a rotten apple in the mailsystem, as there are now 6 envelopes missing. I hope people will complain and talk about it, so the Irish mail can get rid of that leak soon.

Because my time and energy is still limited, I told 4 of my old friends to look for another place. While with the majority of my friends all goes well, I could set the clock that after every 2 or 3 envelopes, one of my envelopes to them went “missing”. 3 Of them just went quiet, but a guy from the Las Vegas named Anthony sent me 2 e-mails which I can’t even show here. When I don’t hear from him anymore, I will let him rest in peace, but he turned out as a racist, talking bad about my girlfriend; how low can you be….

But don’t worry, its past now and the world always has those low-lives, all the positive and friendly e-mails from you all make everything good again.

I wish you all a very good weekend, this next week I will get a CT Scan and hear if everything healed good. When that is alright I can go on with my good and precious life, thank you all again for being there for me, stay well and take care,

René.

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I took this picture yesterday, but don’t worry; it is getting better!

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October 21^ST , 2007

Alright all my precious friends,

Although still slowly, I am getting better, my goal is to start answer e-mails in the coming days. Within a week –maybe a bit longer- I want to have all the orders in the mail.

I am a waek person still, but I will push myself to go work again this week, so I hope you will all get your answers soon, please have patience still.

Ofcourse a few “friends” don’t read this news-page, or just don’t bother what happened, but they will get their orders and have to look for another place; those people will always be there.

The first envelopes will be mailed in a few days, you will get an on its way e-mail, but please give me time.

I already feel stronger than a week ago, lets say I now feel like an 80 year old, so it will take longer before I feel my own 48 again. But I have time, as I am very aware that it was very close for me to not have made it.

I hope to have contacted you all in the coming week. This Thursday I have to go back to the hospital to take the last tube out of my stomach; I look forward to that as it is realy bothering me.

Along with my personal things, I will do my very best to be back in total control again in about 1 ½ week, I know that is alright to most of you, thank you so very much for that.

Well my dear friends, until later, enjoy your life every day as you never know how long you will be on this planet. I am blessed with another chance and I am going to make the very best out of it, stay well and take care,

René.

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October 17^TH , 2007

Hello again my very dear friends,

Sleeping, resting, looking a bit TV, taking medicines, eating little bits, no energy at all, feeling like I am a hundreth.

The doctors told me already it could take a long time before I am back to normal.

I already feel better than last week, but indeed it goes slowly.

I wanted you to stay informed, but putting this on the internet feels already like running the marathon.

I am sorry to tell you can’t count on me yet this week dear friends.

In the weekend one of the peniciline-treatments is finished; That will be 8 pills less a day and I have good hope I will feel much better and stronger than.

I will do my very best to be able to answer e-mails again after the weekend. Mentaly I am ready, but I have to listen to my body.

I will write here again this weekend. Thank you all so very much for your patience.

And you all know you are going to get what you paid for, please don’t doubt about that.

Until this weekend, stay well and take care,

René.

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October 12^TH , 2007

Hello my very dear friends,

I am alive again!

I just came home from 3 ½ weeks hospital this morning, and have to be very happy I am still alive.

I will ofcourse explain everything what happened, even with pictures which were taken from me in the hospital. I will make a webpage with pictures and explanations about everything what happened. (A lot a had to hear from my family and doctors).

Right now I am still too weak and fragile to work, so please don’t send e-mails yet.

You all know that all orders will go out as soon as I am strong enough again to do something.

I am realy very sorry for all the delays but we all have to thank God that I survived this; the last 3 ½ weeks I have been in 2 major surgeries, 11 days in coma and 2 times they called my family that they thought it could be the end.

So you all will understand that my first priority is now to get stronger again, I hope already the coming week to be able to do some e-mails, but my body has gone through deadly infections near my heart and lungs, so it needs all the energy to heal. I will explain everything later.

The doctor told me yesterday-morning that it was realy a “close call”, so I am a very lucky man.

Thank you all for being there for me, you will hear from me on this place as soon as I am a bit better.

Stay well and take care,
René.

PS, Below are 2 pictures, I will make a full report when I am a little better.

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September 8^th, 2007.

Hello my dear friends,

Everything is good here again, still quite tired of all the emotions but happy to be totaly back in business.

So first some business:

For about a week, I have 2 envelopes here. One of them had nothing but a note saying: “superskunk, gracias”, the envelope was from Spain. The second one is for 4KE with a kind letter and only a signature. So those 2 friends can contact me so I can send out their orders.

It doesn’t make it faster but I hope they understand I can’t do much with envelopes like that.

New friends who prefer not to put their e-mail address in their envelope will mostly not get an on its way e-mail. So I ask those friends NOT to e-mail me after a few days to ask if I already received their envelope.

And now ofcourse the reason why I deleted the picture of Madeleine McCann.

I hope I am so very wrong, but I am very afraid something terrible happened with Maddie. I can’t believe her mother did it, and we all know the Portuguese police……..

So let’s all keep hoping for the best for her, but also lets hope the whole case one day will be solved.

Enjoy your weekend my dear friends, until the next time, stay well and take care,

René.

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September 3^rd, 2007.

Hello all my very dear friends,

First of all I want to thank you all so very much for your kind and warm e-mails. I can not say how much all your support has helped me to get through these very difficult weeks.

I am quite alright now; life has to go on and all I can do is keep the sweet memories.

The last days I prepared everything for the new menu, all orders went in the mail and I hope I answered all the e-mails. If anyone still has something to ask, I am totally back again.

Thank you for being my friends, hear you all soon I hope and I will post here again soon to keep you informed, stay well and take care,

René.

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August 28^th, 2007

And here I am again my dear friends.

Please don’t worry; I am alright.

Losing a dear person is very hard, but when that person didn’t have many people around him, it makes it harder. Death is just a part of the whole process.

I am working around the clock to shut off an entire life. Not only empty his house, but the finances, administration and all other things.

In between I am working on the orders, I don’t sedn on its way e-mails, but you know me by now that when I promise that all orders are in the mail this weekend, you can count on that.

I will be totally available the next week for e-mails, for now I send a standard e-mail to informe about the situation and for people who don’t read this page.

My depression was ( and had to be) gone the moment I had to be there for my best friend, I had to be strong.

My dear friends, as usual I want to thank you all for your patience and trust in me, I will be there again for you all the next week when all orders also are gone.

I want o thank you all for being there for me, stay well and take care,

René.

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August 24^th, 2007

This morning I burried the best friend I ever had in my life.

I am getting out of my dip, but it has been a very difficult week.

My girlfriend and me are both very tired of all the experiences of the last period and want to rest this weekend, so the next week I will start to send out orders and answering e-mails again.

As you understand this situation was also the reason of my dip, but because people around me needed me, my dip has already almost gone.

I have to be strong now.

Please dear friends: treasure every friendship you have and tell them you love them when you still have the time and they are still around.

Don’t worry; I feel strong but am just too tired to do anything.

After this weekend it will ofcourse take a while before I am back in order, but I think most of you know me already and know that in about a week I will be the old René. My goal is to have all orders out by the end of the week.

Hear you soon, stay well and take care,

René.

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August 19^TH , 2007

Hello my very dear friends, I hope you already heared that I am a dip, I am getting out of there.

I hope you all can give about a week to get normal again.

I promise to be back soon, stay well please while I work on my situation,

René.

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August 5^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends, the new menu is ready.

I have 2 new types of weed and 2 of hash in the new menu, you will also see the prices changed a bit.

I tried to get the Nepal and the Purple haze also, but it seemed to be impossible to get it around here on a regular base, they are only available a few months a year, sorry for that.

Everything is very well here and I hope the same for you all.

You know you can always ask me for the new menu, stay well and take care,

René.

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July 29^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends, time is going fast as I saw it was already 9 days ago I wrote here last.

Well, quite busy working on the new menu (it will take about another 4 – 6 weeks), the project in Uganda and re-arranging my house.

Everything is good here and ofcourse I hope the same for you all also.

I thank my friends who contacted us with offers to help the project in Uganda, the children wanted to thank you all for making their lives better.

I made a banner for the project; when any of you have a webpage or another place to put it, we would be very happy. The link is to this page, so if you would like to have the link to my personal page, please ask me the link, as you understand I can not put it here.

This is the banner:

You are ofcourse free to copy it, all help is welcome!

Thank you all again, please stay well and take care,

René.

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July 20^TH , 2007

Hello again my dear friends,

Everything is still going very well here, still waiting for the warm summer.

In about 1 or 2 months I will change the menu and put a few new items on it. I will ofcourse tell you on this place as soon as it is available.

A good friend of me in Uganda started a small project some time ago, I realy hope you will all take the time to look at it and think about it.

He started it last year with the help of his family. As you may know there are many children who lost their parents, most of them because of aids.

Most of those children live know with other familymembers, but because those families are very poor, they don’t always have a proper meal.

Because Peter is s good singer, he started to teach some of those children to sing as a choir.

Now people in Uganda (Kampala) know them and invite them to their party or wedding. This way they are able to collect and earn some money.

At this time there are about 100 children in the project who get a free dinner on a daily base.

I wish you all a good weekend, until next time, stay well and take care,

René.

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July 13^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends,

Thank you all for welcoming me home, indeed I am happy to be here again, although the summer here is quite a bit wet until now. Good for me because I have seen enough warmth the last weeks.

Most orders are already on the way, the rest will go out this weekend. And I hope everybody has had an answer to their e-mails.

Just as a reminder; the new items are not yet on the menu, I already have an idea which ones will be in the menu but I have to arrange it still with my suppliers, so it will take some longer. You will hear it on this place when I changed the menu.

I wish you all a very good weekend, I feel very good so things will go alright for a long time to come, stay well and take care,

René.

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July 10^TH , 2007

Hello to all my dear friends,

Yes, I am back !!!

Sorry I didn’t get the chance to write here when I was on holiday, I didn’t even have access to my e-mail.

Everything went very well, it was an unforgettable holiday.

But I am also very happy to be back home, and I feel very good. At this moment I just want to sleep as I have been travelling for 2 days to get back home. Tomorrow I will be totaly back online and in business as normal.

The orders waiting here are ofcourse sent as soon as possible, as also the orders that didn’t make it.

Sorry to hear still a few people didn’t get that I was on holday (although I have been talking about that for the past months), so they will get their answer or order and have to look for another place. That way I just keep my good friends who take the time to know what is written on this place.

I realy hoped for some good news about Madeleine when I got back, so we still have to keep hope and look out for her.

So this wednesday you can all contact me again, I thank you all for your ungoing friendship and we will be in touch. The people who contacted me in my holiday have hopefully got the standard e-mail sent by my friend and they will be answered the end of this week.

To my new friends who contacted me the past 3 weeks; sorry I was not here but because I do this service all alone I also have to get away every now and than, I hope you all understand. After tomorrow I am at your service, stay well and take care,

René.

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June 14^TH , 2007

Alright my very dear friends,

This is my last post before the holiday. This Friday and Saturday I will not be around anymore because I need to arrange and pack everything and I don’t want to go on holiday stressed, I hope you all understand that.

All orders are sent now and the last ones are going today and friday, so you know where to find me when you didn’t get anything after my holiday. Ofcourse we will solve it as usual.

It seems that the Royal Mail has the holiday-workers again because same as last year some envelopes from the UK are stolen, I sent the orders anyway but its quite a shame for the UK Mail.

Maybe I will find an internetcafé in the jungle and I will try something out, but please don’t count on that!

My next post will be when I am back, lets say around july 11^th/12^th .

I hope you all want to wait with e-mails until that time, I am sure I will have much work waiting for me when I come back so a few days later is also alright….

All there is left to say is that I thank you all again for all the support and understanding, my friends at the messageboard made me decide not to take a laptop with me on holiday; just take my holiday in freedom and rest.

Please don’t worry about me, I will take good care of myself, I hope you also all have a good, healthy and happy time, please keep praying for Madeleine, until july, stay well and take care,

René.

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June 11^TH , 2007

Well my dear friends, the counting realy started now.

The last orders are being processed, a few complains of me being stressed and 2 lost envelopes to me is all.

I was thinking to take a laptop with me on holiday to do the e-mail, but I think it would be wise to fully go out of everything so I can be fresh when I am back.

So I hope you all understand that.

This Friday will be the last day I will be behind the computer, so I have Saturday to arrange and pack.

When I am back I will start answering e-mails on july 11^th, so I hope also my new friends want to wait until that Wednesday.

Ofcourse I will say bye to you all here at the end of the week, stay well and take care,

René.

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June 9^TH , 2007

Hello dear friends, in the middle of processing the orders.

I am realy overwhelmed by orders so it will all take a few more days because I have to buy/pack/seal new again what I didn’t expect.

The people who ordered this week will get an on its way e-mail latest on Monday, if not they can contact me.

I am going back to old; 4 grams per order will be the maximum again, ofcourse some friends who I know the situation of don’t have to worry and can go on as usual. I just have to do it because I was getting even orders for 20 grams. And you know I want to keep this a small, decent and safe service for the both of us. That free gram will come after 5 orders anyway and I prefer to help many people with small amounts before serving a few with very big orders.

Orders arriving in my holiday will go out in the week of july 10^th.

So a little stressed René here, but I prefer that over depressed.

Talk to you all again next week, stay well and take care,

René.

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June 7^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends, just a short dip this time, I hope you all didn’t have to wait too long.

This weekend I will answer the e-mails and make the orders which are here.

It is just in time that I feel better again, because I have to work about one more week to make you all happy again and than its time to go.

I didn’t have any contacts with the real World the last days, but I hear there is still no new about Madeleine, I am realy very sorry for that.

I will post here again next week, because I still want to arrange something for the e-mails in those 3 weeks; you will hear that next week Monday or Tuesday, stay well everybody and that you for having me in your thoughts, take care,

René.

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June 1^ST , 2007

And here I am again my dear friends, quite busy arranging everything.

I just made a new webpage with the new items on it, so you all know a little what to expect.

Please all know that I am not waiting for orders of 20 grams; I will keep files so when you ordered a total of 20 grams you get the free gram, you can take as long as you want to get it.

I think my regular friends know already I spend a lot on security, so please feel safe; I have a separate computer with the files which is not even connected with the internet for your safety.

So I will keep track on how much you ordered, but when you know it also please let me know if you go for a free gram of hash or weed to speed up things.

I still wish we can get Madeleine home soon, that would be the best birthday present for me.

Stay well dear friends, I hear you again next week,

Take care,

René.

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May 24^TH , 2007

Hello my dear friends,

First of all I hope I can delete the pictures on top of this page before my holiday, even sooner! Lets bring this girl back home to her family.

My life and this service is running good, although the mail is slow there is still time to order. I also arranged everything so as soon as I am back the orders arrived between june 17^th and july 10^th will be mailed a day later.

I also have new plans; because I get e-mails if I can get other types, I want to put some new items in the menu.

It will take some time, but I figured out a way to do this. This is especially for my regular customers.

As you know, there is always a free pre-rolled joint for people who ordered 8 ones. Ofcourse that stays that way.

Starting from june 1^st you can start to “save”for a free gram of a new type (I will try 3 types of hash and 3 types of weed). After you ordered 20 grams (not at once please), I will send you an envelope with it; you may choose yourself if you want hash or weed. It will say inside the envelope which type it is. All I hope you want to do is to let me know which type you got and what you think of it (smell, describsion, effect etc.)

In the next months I will ‘evaluate’ and decide what is going to be new in the menu.

I hope you are all happy to hear this, I will write here again the next week, in the meantime please keep looking out for Madeleine, stay well and take care,

René.

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May 16^TH , 2007

5 Weeks and counting my dear friends!

So its still a long wait but it is wonderful to look forward to.

The medicines I now have work realy very good, but ofcourse also the plans and the time of the year help me a lot. I hope so much that my friends who have the sae problems also have a good time; thank you all so much for your kind e-mails!

This page is realy starting to look like a sort of diary, so I will keep all the messages here; that way you all can see how my life goes, well, I always try to avoid having secrets for my friends.

Everything is arranged for the time I am away, I will try to answer e-mails who are important and my Aisha is looking after the cats and the house, maybe she will also answer some e-mails.

This service will go on as usual, the orders arriving here after june 17^th will just be delayed until july 10^th , sorry for that but most of you are already used to that and accept it.

I will ofcourse write here again before I go and I may even be able to write on this place when I am on holiday.

Stay well dear friends, and take care,

René.

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May 7^TH , 2007

Alright my friends, my holiday is booked and I can say that I realy look forward to it.

I will be away from june 17^th until july 10^th.

I will do my best to be able to answer e-mails, but if it can wait until I am back I would be happy.

So there are still 6 weeks to go, ofcourse in that time all orders go out as usual.

The envelopes that arrive here between june 17^th and july 10^th will be send out right after I am back home.

So I hope to hear you all in the coming 6 weeks or ofcourse after the holiday.

Everything is going good with me, I wish you all are also doing good.

I will be regularly posting here again before I go, stay well and take care,

René.

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May 3^RD , 2007

Hello dear friends,

A new month, beautiful weather and maybe a holiday to look forward to.

Life looks good at the moment, so everything is going good here.

Some friends asked for an update about the future of my little “service between friends”.

I am indeed going on with it, the only thing is that I have to be a little harder; some people don’t accept that sometimes I have a dip, so I am telling those people to look for another place.

For all my other understanding friends; don’t worry, I will do my very best to keep doing this for a long time to come.

I am still planning my holiday, but it will probably be from july 3^rd until july 23^rd . So in that time I can’t send out orders, but I will have everything ready to send out orders as soon as I am back. Also in that time answering e-mails will be not easy. I will do my best to get e-mail access abroad, but you will understand that it will only be for very important issues that can’t wait until I am back.

I hope you also are doing well, lets all stay optimistic and positive, even with our disabilities.

Be well dear friends, and take care,

René.

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April 23^TH, 2007

And indeed things are getting better every day my dear friends.

This weekend the last orders went in the mail, so for my friends who had to wait for a long time: your patience will be rewarded soon.

The weather here is very good which helps a lot. I am also making plans for a holiday in 1 or 2 months, I just have to get away from my house and everything. I will ofcourse keep you informed on this place when that is going to happen.

So now this service is up and running as in good times, I keep doing my best to keep it this way for a long time, only with a short pause when I am away for that holiday ofcourse.

I keep on thanking many of you for your very kind and supporting e-mails, and I also want to wish the friends who have the same discomforts much strength.

Please be well you all, and take care,

René.

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April 19^TH, 2007

Hello again dear friends,

I am quite optimistic because of the new medicines, I feel much better and am almost done sending out all orders. The last ones are going this weekend, also a friend helps me to be sure everything is back on track this Sunday-evening.

Again I thank you for staying patient with me, there were only 3 people who were not patient enough and I told them to look for another place; because that is how it will be in the future.

Thanks again for your great support and I wish all my friends who told me about their depressions very much strength, indeed it is something frustrating because your body and mind are not doing what you want. Also nothing comes out of your hands as you all have experienced with me the past weeks.

I wish you all a very good weekend, this Monday I am back on full power, stay well and take care,

René.

PS, I have received an envelope with only the name “Danny”, so I hope he wants to contact me.

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April 16^TH, 2007

Hello my dear friends,

I am very slowly getting better, I have to realize that I am still in the depression.

Almost half of the orders are now on the way. I put myself to work every day, but still it is not easy. The good news is, that I have new medicines, so I hope that will start helping me very soon.

I want to thank you all for your very kind e-mails and I am sorry I have to ask many of you to be patient still, I do my very best but my body and mind still have to get better again.

I will write here again soon, I will also let you all know when all the orders are on their way, thank you all very much, take care,

René.

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April 10^TH, 2007

And here I am again dear friends.

I am still processing orders, some are already on the way, but the rest will go this week.

I want to thank you all so very much for your support; you all realy help me again to get out of this depression.

There is again light at the end of the tunnel, so please don’t worry.

So I am back in bussines, although everything goes still slowly.

Thank you all for being there for me, stay well and take care,

René.

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April 5^TH, 2007

Hello my dear friends, again it was wrong with me.

It is still not going very well with me, but at the moment I am working on the orders, so they will be mailed within a few days. You know that is my first priority, so please be patient for the answers at you e-mails because everything still goes slowly.

I am still stressed, tired and have a lot in my head.

I have been thinking about stopping with this service, because I am so tired to let you wait every now and than.

It also didn’t work out with my friend to help me, so I am still on my own.

I am very happy my good friends know that the orders ofcourse will go after a depression of me.

That is why I decided to go on with this service, but ONLY for the people who understand and accept my situation. People who can not accept it, or are not patient enough must look for another place.

Thanks again dear friends.

We will all be in touch after the holidays, so I all wish you a very Happy Easter!!

Be well you all, because that is so important, and take care,

René.

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March 5^TH, 2007

Hello dear friends,

The problems with the e-mail are solved, everything is back to normal again!

Also our other page is working again, so life is good!

Stay well and take care,

René.

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March 3^rd, 2007

And here I am again my dear friends,

I have been busy with the e-mail, I am not limited anymore with sending, but it still is not working as I want it. Anyway; I can communicate normal again.

I still feel good and I will do my very best to keep it this way.

The messageboard is working very good, you know I only will be visiting it to put a message on it or to register new friends, I don’t read the messages because it is YOUR place and you are free to talk about what you want.

I wish you all a very nice spring, for me it is the best time of the year with everything starting to live and grow again.

I want to thank the people who ordered with their patience, because there are still orders on their way. But everything at last is on its way.

Thank you all for being there for me, stay well and take care,

René.

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February 21^ST 2007

Hello again my dear friends,

First of all I want to thank you for all your very kind support. Please know that I don’t feel sorry for myself; I am getting used to how my life is now.

The only problem was always that I do this all alone, and you know I don’t want my friends to wait too long for an order when I have a depression. I am now learning a friend about this service, so he can take things over when I am not well. But it will take time before he knows everything as in the 8 years everything looks easy but still it is a lot of work. I will keep you informed on this place.

I still have big problems with e-mail. It seems I can not solve it on a short terme, so I have to ask you all to try to avoid sending me e-mail. I don’t like it because you know personal e-mailcontact is very important for me. But for the moment I can only answer very important issues. Sorry for that but I hope you all will understand.

All people who ordered can be sure that by the end of this week their order(s) will be in the mail, again I am very sorry, but I hope that will not happen again when my friend knows how everything works.

At this moment I am very good, so I hope this period will be a very long good period, it should be with spring in our head, stay well dear friends, and take care,

René.

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February 17^TH 2007

Hello dear friends, I am feeling better but still very tired. This weekend I will start up everything.

At this moment I have big problems sending e-mails, I still receive them but somehow I can not send.

But as always the orders have first priority.

Thank you all again for your patience and I also read already a few e-mails and I am greatfull and moved for the kind and supporting words!

Be sure that the coming week all orders will be on the way. I will ofcourse keep you informed about everything on this and other places.

Thank you all again and as usual my excuses for the delay.

Stay well and take care,

René.

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February 14^TH 2007

Hello my dear friends, I am there again!

As usual I am very sorry for the time I was not well.

This weekend I will be good again, but I already wanted you to know.

I am also working to get a companion here in Holland who can let everything go on when I am not good, because it happened a lot lately and I don’t want you all to be the victim of that.

Please hold your e-mails for a few more days.

And ofcourse I wish everybody a very Happy Valentines Day, stay well and take care,

René.

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January 26^TH 2007

Hello all my dear friends,

The messageboard is running good, I realy hope all my friends will become a member.

Also feel free to chat with eachother, I don’t know much about it so I leave that up to you; start a new threath or something.

Today I have problems sending e-mail, I hope it will work again soon, so please be patient for an answer.

Stay well and take care,

René.

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January 21^ST 2007

Hello my dear friends,

The chatroom/messageboard is ready!

With the help of my Swedish friend, we now have a private messageboard.

It is all new, so it will take some time before it all will work as we want, but the start is there.

So all of my friends can ask me when they want to become a member; new friends can not yet become a member.

All you have to do is send me an e-mail, if you want you can choose your own login name, also if you want you can give me your birthdate. ( if you choose not, your age will not be shown).

I realy hope this is going to be our own private place to stay in contact with me and all of my friends.

Feel free to talk about everything and I wish you all a lot of fun!

I will try to stay away from it as much as I can, but will ofcourse keep you all informed about how I am.

We will hopefully talk again on the messageboard, stay well and take care,

René.

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January 17^TH 2007

Hello my dear friends, well, with the help of a good friend I can tell you all that our private chatroom is in the make.

It will be accessable only for people who contact me first; they will get a loginname and password. That way only people I trust can be part of it, I will only let friends in who ordered with me; not for the business but to be sure it is someone who uses the medicine.

The first weeks I will do the honour of being the administrator, but I hope already that one of you will think about it to take that over. After all the idea is to keep you all informed when something is wrong with me. That way I only have to contact that person.

The guastbook is terrible, so lets hope this plan will work out great!

I will ofcourse keep you informed here and in the guestbook (when it is online), stay well and take care,

René.

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January 15^TH 2007

Hello my dear friends.

Everything is back to normal again here.

A friend of us gave me an idea, I hope he wants to contact me because I want to thank him.

I thought about it good, but indeed it could be a good idea to start a chatroom, private ofcourse.

I think it would not be a good idea when I started it and get control over it because it will be the room for my friends. I never like to talk about myself or even read about myself; that is also the reason I will never read messageboards or something like that.

I never chat on the internet and don’t have MSN, so I hope there is someone who can help with it. Because by now the most of you know it sometimes happens I am away for a short while, you can all keep eachother informed.

It should be somebody I can completely trust, so I can contact him to put a message from me in that room. Also when something changes with webpages or things like that.

I am eagerly waiting, stay well and take care,

René.

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January 13^TH 2007

Hello again all my dear friends, I hope you are all well.

Indeed it happened again, but all my friends accept that by now I hope. Sometimes I have a depression which I can live with; as it never takes longer than 2 weeks.

I want to wish you all a late Happy but –more important- Healthy New Year,

Stay well and take care,

René.

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December 30^TH 2006

Hello all my dear friends,

The year 2006 is almost over, I am happy for that because the year started very bad for me.

But, also thanks to you all, I can end this year much better and look forward to the new year where things only can become better.

The weekend has started, so the mail will not go until Tuesday, I will have 3 free days!

I want to wish you all a very good weekend and a Beautiful New Year’s Eve. And ofcourse already I wish you all health, happiness and goodluck in 2007!!!

I hope to hear from you all again in the new year,

Stay well and take care,

René.

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December 20^TH 2006

Hello dear friends,

Everything is very well here, we are waiting for the holidays.

I think we have to accept that the dutchsecret –page is lost. It is still online, but I can’t do anything with it anymore. The host is not responding at my e-mails, so that was it for the Hungarian company.

I hope everybody will find this new webpage and everything can go on as usual.

In the new year I will start working on another (backup) page because it seems a problem to keep a webpage like this online for a long time.

Stay well and take care, happy holidays!

René.

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December 13^TH 2006

Hello all my old and new friends!

Because I still have problems with the old page (dutchsecret) I started this new page.

Everything here in Holland is very well.

I want to wish you all already very Happy Christmas and a safe ending of 2006, after that ofcourse the best for a healthy and happy 2007!

Stay well and take care,

René.

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